I don't want to run away

Is the sixth sense an accurate judge of the situation? In the past, it was. But, its status now is clearly unknown. There are the vibes, but one cannot be too sure. Critics will always be the first to point out that sensitivity is making a fool out of everyone. It’s been so long, but nothing remains changed. It may have in fact gotten worse. One should always exercise self restrain, no matter how hard/tough it may be. This is how cruel the world can be.

When it comes to situations like this, it’s best to forget about it. However, this is always easier said than done. It tugs the very little conscience of one’s bare soul and tries to rip it apart. Laughters and fun everywhere. But in one quiet corner of the bare room, there lies someone - someone who wishes for things to be different, to be better.

I can’t think anymore. That’s all I can think of for now. Whenever I try to think, the pain comes back. It’s worrying me. I don’t want to have another attack. It’s been years, and it shouldn’t happen now. It’s probably gonna keep me awake the whole night. I tried to rest earlier on, but I just couldn’t. It has got me back up sitting.

I yearn for it. It’s a question whether I get it.