12:50pm. 20 more mintues.

Leaving thing alone/ignoring it/thinking it wouldn’t matter seriously makes things worse. I tried to rectify the situation but I felt even worse. So I guess that was the point where I just stopped trying. Whenever I see the smiles and the laughter and the fun that exists, I do feel a sense of loss. I was a part of it; I was in it… but not anymore…

I do feel a little cheated right now. You were there to help me, to cheer me up. But I didn’t expect you to betray me. When I tell you some stuff, I thought you were going to keep it to yourself, and just forget about it. But NO! You didn’t! You told others and making the matter even worse. Can I still tell you things? I don’t know… My mind is still in a whirl. I need an outlet.

Darn! I’m really hungry right now. Mr. Chow is going on and on. I think it’s supposed to be motivational, but I’m really tired to think about all those stuff right now. We have to prepare for the UK trip presentation later in the afternoon. The fact: we are supposed to be prepared for it. But the whole lot of us are going to do last minute work, again. Hee! It’s gonna be a long day again. I want to go home and keep Ralph company, but I need to work. So, should I stay and study?