Once bitten twice shy. You tell yourself you’re not gonna let it happen again. But why? Why does it come to you at the same period of time again?

I knew it was coming, but I was in denial. The indicators warned me once more, but I believed in myself. Now, straight in my face, I was not to be.

How did it happen! I simply have no clue. It sort of just grew on me. It was not like anything else. This was so different, so unusual. Time was short, but it was special. I thought that it was it, but it could be negligence that I let it go.

What was wrong with me? No, no, no. Forbidden, forbidden, forbidden. And I still had to go and tamper with it. Silly, I know. But I just couldn’t help it. It was definitely alluring. That’s is probably why there are so many problems.

A few days ago, I thought the whole situation was getting better, but yesterday was a huge blow to me once again.

I pray that I can forget about it as quick as I can and get on with my life. Maybe boring, uninteresting, pushy, smelly, overly expressive blah, blah, blah greenhorn may work after all.