Growing Up

Believe it or not. It's only November the 19th and everyone is preparing for Christmas. I thought of doing my Christmas shopping in December. But every retail shop in this small sunny island is gearing up for Christmas. I can't help but to bring forward my holiday shopping.

It's kinda weird. I remember when I was younger, I used to yearn that I'll grow up really soon, so I can watch movies, sit for my driving test, go drinking... But now, I just wish that I could be a little girl once again.

Holidays are meant to be enjoyed. I haven't been enjoying my holidays for the past few years. When I heard the song 'White Christmas' in a shop earlier, my thought just transported me back to the past. Christmas then was a wonderful time, especially when you get to spend it with your family in Canada, sitting under the Christmas tree exchanging presents, have a cuppa cocoa, share some laughs, play some games, and definitely enjoying the scenery of a white christmas.

It's so different now. Well, I can't really go back there and spend much of my holidays there. Christams is a time for family, and there is a new addition in my family - Ralph. I can't bear to leave him at home while I spent time with my relatives in Cananda, enjoying a white Christmas.

But that's besides the point. It used to be carefree holiday season in the past. One where you can just live by each day, without worrying about tomorrow. It's so different now. everyday, I worry about a whole list of things. Call me a worrywort if you must. I just can't help it. Life is crazy around here. What am i saying? Life is crazy everywhere.