Mind Games

I think I get influenced too easily. Whatever people say or do, I either believe their views or take it seriously. I’m not saying that I don’t have a mind of my own. But sometimes, I tend to become prejudice because of this. Am I too sensitive or is my instincts right? I really don’t know. I really wanna be a part of it. However, there are so many things that are holding me back. I’m used to a ‘team’ atmosphere. Got a problem? Thrash it out and forget about it man! That’s what the spirit is all about. I’ve been trying so hard, and I’m getting tired of the game. Time-out! It’s time to move on. I gotta do it, no matter how tough and hard it might be. Cliché, I know.

Today’s afternoon off from reality was great. Although I wished that I was back on court on a beautiful Friday afternoon, I had to sit out. I’m getting worried. My ankle is still giving me problems. Lots of problems. Sometimes when I walk, I just feel the sudden weakness in my legs. And, I still can’t do a half-about turn. Is this the end of my tennis days? It might be a good time to stay in the sidelines and concentrate on the path right in front of me. But the pull from behind is too strong. I’ve been doing this since I was a kid who just started running. Giving it up just like that is a no-go, not without a fight. Of course, I must also take into consideration my A levels, which is so darn worrying. Prelims 1 are round the corner, and I’m not even confident of it. What the future lies, I don’t know.