A Whole Day of Silence

I have been trying to sleep as much as possible so that time will pass by quickly without me thinking about the whole issue. It has been really tough especially when I awake to see there wasn't a single message in my phone.

The truth is, it's only 2 more days. I am both excited but at the same time terrified. I am terrified of silence, I am terrified that I will be ignored and I am terrified that things won't be the same since we last met.

What have I become?